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I was stunned when I received sms that my uni housemate passed away on Wednesday (25th August 2010) at 12:30 pm. She was 32 years old and she left behind a husband and a pair of twin daughter aged 2 years 10 months.

2 months plus ago I lost a loving dad and now I lost a dearly friend….

Hafizah or normally known by the nickname Ciput finally lost battle with cancer. There’s so many IF running through my head…

IF hospital don’t make her wait 2 months for her first appointment THEN

Maybe the cancer treatment can be start early.

IF the doctor took thing more seriously THEN

They won”t tell her that it’s nothing serous !

IF … (the list go on and on) …

She went through operation in April 2010 and after that things got worse. She start having severe headache and in June 2010 she lost her eyes. She can’t do chemotherapy coz according to the doctor her cancer cells are too active. In July I was told that she got cancer 3/4 of her head.

I cried during her funeral when I saw one of her twin daughter cried. They don’t understand anything and today I was told that they keep on asking for their mom… How do explain death to them? How do you explain death to a 2 years old kids? I can even explained my dad death to my mentally challenge sister.

Nothing is confirmed in this world except death.

I had enough!

Why is it okay for me to suffer and face all the stupid problems while YOU just totally ignore it!!!

Do you know how many calls and emails did I got per day? Well I guess coz it doesn’t matter coz it’s you who got it so you just don’t care about it!!!

You are the most selfish bastard person that I ever encounter with …

You just bloody don’t care and guess what if you can act selfish and plain idot, so do I.

Go to hell and get out of my life!!!

I don’t need to please your stupid act anymore coz I just had enough!!!!

So long sucker!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Remember I used to complain about my direct reporting manager? I wanted to change department but it was unsuccessful … Wanted to change job / company but my late dad advised stop me and make me think twice. Now I hope I’ll stop complaining as I got what I wish for.

My direct reporting manager has been transferred and no longer a manager.  I hope it’s for better and not for the worse … someone use to tell me : if you can’t beat them, join them … but if you can join them either you or them need to go …

My ex team lead ping me today. He was telling me that department would be hiring a new manager to replace her. I can sense that he’s trying to make me feel that he would be a good replacement for the manager post. Come on! Gimme a break … Do you really think I would give you my vote if customers have been complaining about you? With your attitude problem I would really dumb bimbo to even suggest your name as a manager!!

I don’t really know how such people have the courage of asking for a manager position. Don’t you feel ashamed when you got 3 complaints letter in 2 weeks? Don’t you feel down when you know you screw up a project/assignment? I guess some people just born with thick skin.

I’ve been depressed on not having a child for years (Well we have been married for 3 years). .. Recently I got to know that I’m not the only one among my colleague that been trying with luck.  It surprised me to know that most of my office colleagues are actually trying for the past 5 to 7 years. Some has done 2 to 3 times of IVF (no luck till now) while some under go up to 3 operations/ surgeries.

Last month (or may be a month before) hubby and I decided that we gonna enjoy our life as DINK (Dual Income No Kid). We would be going for short break in Singapore on June 12, 2010. We are also planning for our Ausie trip in July or early August and in December or January if financial permit we might go for Europe trip.

We are also planning to get another car (hubby need a golf for his golf session) early next year. At first we were thinking of getting the new Hyundai Tucson but after some financial constrain we decided to wait till end of the year. Some did ask us why we aren’t getting a house yet. Well to be frank we like our current house environment and Insha’Allah we might consider buying a house in this neighborhood soon. Whether it’s an intermediate or corner just let our budget do the talking.

I’m thankful to God for the good life I’m living. I got a good job (even though most of the time I complaint about it), a loving family + friend and a good husband that loves me for who I am.

If you noticed I don’t really praised my hubby much. Well to let you know he’s a good husband. Sometime we did have a fight but that just how marriage life is. You need to learn to accept the bad manner and side as well. I read about wife being abuse and hits by their husband in News. Thanks goodness my husband never laid a hand on me. He would try to give me everything that within his power (and budget of coz). Whenever I asked for something he would say this “If you like it, just buy it” and that always make me having second thought. I would do all the calculation and then change my mind.  For example last week we were doing windows shopping at The Garden. We stop by Kate Spade boutique and I saw a handbag that I kind of like it. Hubby already brings it to the cash register and then my mind start making the normal calculation (handbag cost – handbag usage)… we end up no buying it even though it was dirt cheap. I wish I got the handbag and just let hubby pay for it. Yesterday when I walked pass Kate Spade I saw that the handbag has been sold to someone else. Sigh! I need to train my brain to stop making this kind of calculation.

I’m going Singapore soon and hopefully I can do some shopping during the GSS 2010. The promotion looks good with most of the boutique having up to 50% and 70% discount.  I desperately need to get some working attire and shoes.

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You are so obnoxious and I hate you! Everything has to be how or what u want it to be. Gosh !! get a life. IDIOT!!!

I hate you and I really hope you rotten in HELL.