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Remember I used to complain about my direct reporting manager? I wanted to change department but it was unsuccessful … Wanted to change job / company but my late dad advised stop me and make me think twice. Now I hope I’ll stop complaining as I got what I wish for.

My direct reporting manager has been transferred and no longer a manager.  I hope it’s for better and not for the worse … someone use to tell me : if you can’t beat them, join them … but if you can join them either you or them need to go …

My ex team lead ping me today. He was telling me that department would be hiring a new manager to replace her. I can sense that he’s trying to make me feel that he would be a good replacement for the manager post. Come on! Gimme a break … Do you really think I would give you my vote if customers have been complaining about you? With your attitude problem I would really dumb bimbo to even suggest your name as a manager!!

I don’t really know how such people have the courage of asking for a manager position. Don’t you feel ashamed when you got 3 complaints letter in 2 weeks? Don’t you feel down when you know you screw up a project/assignment? I guess some people just born with thick skin.

It been a while since the last update on my blog. Mac + early April was a havoc + busy month for me. I was so stressed till I got myself hospitalized due to high blood pressure.

I always love security and automation pillar. In end of March, my boss told me that i would need to pick up network management. How do I take it? Not very well . Network is really not my cup of tea. He told me that I would only need to do it for a month and then I’m off the hook. I walked straight to my Manager and told him that it’s not a good idea due to the following reasons :

1) I don’t like Network Management so picking it up would be hard for me.

2) What the point of me learning picking it up if I’m only gonna use the knowledge for 2 weeks (minus 2 weeks of learning it).

3) There’s too many ppl in my team focusing on Network Management. Why don’t I focus on a products where nobody want to pick up.

After 2 hours of Gloria jeans coffee with my Manager, I still need to do it! I got opportunity to do either security or automation but he won’t let me do it coz he already promised me to the Network Management project manager. I was so unhappy!!

After the chat, I called hubby and told him that I’m resigning. Lucky for me he was okay with the idea of me taking a break before look for another job. Even though I was 100% confirm to tender my resignation on Monday, I still can’t forget the idea that I’m being penalized for able to pick up or learn stuffs pretty fast and like able by customer. Other team members got to choose on what they want to do and what they don’t want to touch where else I need to do everything?

On the way back home, my head start to hurt. Next day I was hospitalized at Columbia Asia and got MC for a week.

hmmm so did I tender last Monday? Well the answer would be NO. When meet up with my manager on Monday he told me that I don’t need to go in for Network Management project as he is getting outside resources. Hopefully this decision stay until the end of the year.

Sometimes it hard when you are good at what you are doing. If you suck, nobody want you even other department would know that you suck! but … If you are good, you manager won’t let you go and other department would welcome you with open arms…

I was and will be busy at customer place till at least 24th Feb.  I just love the coffee at this customer place. They have 2 Jura IMPRESSA S7 AVG black  espresso / coffee machine at every pantry.

I wish I have this machine at home but looking at the price I doubt so.

I so many things on my plate. I need to rush for UAT next week and prepare production cut over a week after. After this project end, I might need to travel to either Thailand, Singapore or Philippines for a short engagement. My manager define one month  as short period.

Hubby tendered his resignation. He will start working at his previous company in March. He got himself a 2 weeks vacation before starting the new job at old company.

I’m sicked and tired of everything related to my work. As of now I dun really know why do I go to office? Nothing much on my side that can’t be done from home. I passed 2 certifications which mean I only need another one certification to meet my goal this year. I guess it’s time for me to look for a greener path. I need to be productive. I need my brain to work hard for me.

My routine when I have no project in hand and  “IF” I manage to drag myself to office :

08:00 am – Get Ready to office

09:00 am – Still considering

10:00 am – SMS/Call CEP (ask whether he would be in office)

11:00 am – Start Driving to Office

11:30 am – Reach Office. Park at expensive parking place coz too lazy to walk.

12:00 pm – Still trying to find a place to sit. Normally end up hijacking one of the discussion room.

01:00 pm – Walk around and greet all the important peoples. Chit chat and show faces.

02:00 pm – Call hubby and any friends willing to chat on phone.

02:30 pm – Thinking of going home

03:30 pm – Still think I should head home

04:30 pm – Pack my laptop and wait for lift.

05:00 pm – Reach home. Felt guilty for not staying long in office. Pray no office/work call until 05:30 pm

06:00 pm – Reject all calls related to work even though it’s my manager.

Life at work suck when you are idle! I’m not sure when would my project start. I guess I should accept either the work assignment in Korea or teaching classes in ASEAN. I hate teaching as I hate talking to people that I don’t know. argh …

Don’t you just tired of not being appreciated, of being taken for granted, of being ignored at work. Well I do and so do my other services colleagues. We are so fed up with not hearing a flipping thank you for things that we go out of our way to do.

We work from home after office hours. Replying mail and working even weekends. Got MC, on weekend or public holiday? Forget about resting or enjoying ourselves. We still need to work even on these days. We need to reply emails, prepare SOW and etc on Friday night, Saturday and Sunday.

I pity my colleagues that have kids. With work life balance motto they should have more time for their kids and I’m supposed to have more time for my chubby bloated hubby.

Sometimes the thanks and rewards does come in but went straight to wrong people. It went to our manager or sales lady or sleeping pm. Come on!! They are not the one working long hours and get the thing fixes! We are the on work very hard, almost 24/7 non-stop. On top of that we also have to do their job coz either they are so bad at it or they just don’t give a damn about it. Then again, maybe that’s why they wear the PRADA.. and I only wear BATA

No appreciations to you, what will you do? Will you give up (my other pillar TL does)? Will you resign (one of my colleague does)?

Anyone know a company or manager who appreciates private time and draws a clear line between work and personal time? Let me know k.